Birthing Moshiach

by | Oct 10, 2023 | Articles

When I was in labor with my first child, I barely dilated. 6-8 hours of very painful “back labor” contractions, starting 10 minutes apart and then progressing to 1.5 minutes apart…and I only dilated 1 cm. My baby couldn’t tolerate the labor either, as his heart rate dropped too low with the contractions, and he ended up being delivered via an emergency C-section.

I went into that labor with a very negative perspective on the pain of childbirth. I was terrified to experience such pain, I resisted it completely, and my only birth plan was to get an epidural as soon as possible. It took many years for me to understand that the reason my body did not respond appropriately to the contractions was because I was so afraid of them. Rather than surrender to the pain and appreciate what it’s accomplishing, I fought it and shut my body down in the process, not allowing the good to come from it. If not for the blessing of modern medicine, the end result would have been tragic ch”v.

I came to realize that to live a powerful and purposeful life, I need to develop a new relationship with pain. However, since the rest of my children were delivered via planned C-sections, I was not able to strengthen that new relationship with *labor* pains specifically.

Until now, that is.

We all know that we are in the process of birthing Moshiach, and the current war is a huge wave of Chevlei Moshiach (birth pangs of Moshiach). As the horrifying news trickled in on Simchas Torah, I felt myself starting to freeze and shut down in the face of so much pain. I knew that it was normal to feel grief, heartache, and anxiety in this situation, but I also knew that I was losing myself in it and didn’t know how to get out so I could be helpful and fight in this spiritual war. Until I realized, with the help of dear friends, that now is my chance to redo the birthing experience.

I always say that it’s my mission to greet Moshiach and I believe so deeply that that’s our destiny. But to do that, I need to surrender to the painful contractions that will get us there. This will allow the contractions to do their job most effectively and with the least amount of pain possible!

Contractions exist to open us up.

Hashem, please help us open up to more Emunah and Bitachon.

Let us open up to a deeper and more connected relationship with You.

Open us up to genuine and lasting Ahavas Chinam.

Open us up to our inner power that comes from spiritual elevation.

Open us up to actualize our soul’s mission on this earth.

And open us up to the depths of Torah learning, the deep mystical secrets of Kabbalah and Chassidus, that will mold us into vessels that can receive Moshiach.

Even with hypnobirthing (and other empowered approaches to childbirth), there comes a point for many women where the pain is too much to bear. At that time, the last thing a woman needs is for her loved ones (husband, doula, doctor, etc.) to fall apart with her. Deep compassion, of course. But those surrounding her need to not get so immersed in her pain that they lose their ability to support and protect her.

Too many of our loved ones are now experiencing unbearable pain. The last thing they need is for us to be paralyzed with them in their grief. They need us to be their soldiers. Spiritual soldiers. We need to consistently send rockets of spiritual light in whatever forms we feel called. And our spiritual efforts will be more potent if we’re operating from an elevated place of feeling emunah alongside the pain, rather than from a place of darkness and despair which weakens us and doesn’t allow us to unleash the full potential of our spiritual light.

So do what you need to do (which often first starts with feeling the pain and crying bitterly but not allowing yourself to stay stuck there), shield yourself from unnecessary traumatic information, and surround yourself with strong friends and mentors so that you can be who the Jewish people need you to be right now.

*To get a better understanding of the unfolding redemption process, watch Geula Mindset Part 1: The Call of the Hour